I'm not sleeping anymore. Daniel keeps telling me to take the xanax the doctor prescribed, but I just can't seem to bring myself to do it. Although I did dye my hair today. It felt good to actually see the "Laura" I'm used to, but then a feeling of overwhelming guilt took over, and I felt sick for quite a while. I guess I'm assuming the xanax will have that same effect? Or maybe it will allow me to sleep, which will stop me from picking at my face, staring off into space for long periods of time......and maybe...just MAYBE....could afford me the clarity I desperately need????
I guess there is a part of me that believes that these last few days with her are going to make a difference, even though I KNOW this is not possible.
take it. the dr. prescribed it for a reason and you need even a moment of rest.
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ReplyDeleteI'm going to tonight. Thank you, Kaitlyn, for everything. All your talks, early mornings and late nights at our house, and for the cookies. :)
ReplyDeleteI agree with Kaitlyn-use the tools that are available to us.
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