Time heals.....

When I think about the timeline and really consider that we knew something was wrong all the way back in October (E.R. visit for bleeding), then on November 14th (we were first told about possible cystic hygroma and omphalocele and were referred to Univ of Washington), it seems like the 5 weeks that passed between then and the final diagnosis on November 30th would have prepared us, even if only slightly, for the final outcome.  But it so didn't.  The emptiness I felt after losing her was PROFOUND.  Oh.  My.  Gosh.  And the simple act of wrapping my head around all of this has proven to be harder than I thought.

These past two weeks have been the hardest weeks of my life...but strangely enough, they've also been wonderful as well.  Danny and I had, coincidentally, scheduled vacation time this whole past week.  We originally planned to take a honeymoon, then found out we were pregnant and decided to stay close to home and do cheap and fun things, and THEN found out about everything...and, well, you all know the rest.

I didn't leave the house at all, didn't even put on make-up, and Daniel was here with me the entire time.  He didn't leave my side.  He has shown me unconditional love and patience and kindness, and has carried me, literally, through all of this.  He is SUCH a wonderful man, and I am so absolutely blessed to be married to him.

The power this has had over our marriage is astounding:  I KNOW that because we survived this, we will survive everything life has to throw at us.  I KNOW that I am with my eternal companion, and that my love for him is more powerful than anything I could have imagined feeling for another human.  And I am humbled by it.

We've been talking about what is in front of us now, and how we can make the best of it...TOGETHER.  Most importantly, we are now actively trying to get our paperwork in order so we can be sealed.  This is of upmost importance to us both, especially now, and I can't wait to get started on the planning for that once we can set a date.  The Brigham City Temple won't be finished until the end of next year, so we decided we will just have to do SLC, or even Logan.  It will be fun to get that rolling, and to put my energy into something so positive and wonderful!

Thanks to everyone for reading and for your calls, texts, emails, phone conversations, and most importantly, for your love.  We have felt every single prayer, and we love you all.